do not make someone your priority
when you're only an option to them.

dont make it a jail.
remember, its like holding water in your hands
the tighter you try to prevent it from dripping
the faster it will empty away.

love myself more.
i shall indulge in things that make me happy
despite knowing that he hates them.
i'll get all the pretty heels.
clothes that make me beautiful
and do make up that allows me to shine. (:
this is what a woman should do.
no woman should be a ugly housewife/gf.

I wont let myself become ugly/fat/undesirable.
regardless of what age i am,
i want to be the best looking individual that
i can be.

so from this moment, i'm not going to bother
about what other people think about my dressing.
i dress to please myself.
and that's good enough for me.


/if you cant accept me for who i am,
you definitely dont deserve me at my best.